Happy Thing of the Day: standing at the window and seeing the snow, the flakes of crystal perfection, feathering from the sky. pg. 223
Secrets. We all have them. A something that has happened that you don't want anyone to know, or maybe only a select few. We've all heard the expression "secrets don't make friends" and the clever follow up "but friends make secrets". Those two phrases as a whole make the best case for friendship that I know. Who better to tell your secrets to than your friend, but that friendship should not be based on getting secrets out of each other. I have experienced, more than once in my life, that a big secret that you don't share can eat away at you until it is all you can think about. It consumes you, eats away at every part of your soul until it is all you can hear echoing throughout your body. You just have to tell someone! Or on the rare occasion one of your friends figures it out, and though you are angry it isn't a secret, you are relieved there is someone else carrying this heavy load with you.
But what happens with those big secrets? Those enormous, life altering moments that you maybe don't want to be figured out. You'd rather risk the destruction that secret can bring instead of someone figuring it out. I thought I had one of those secrets once, and when someone finally found out it was actually a relief, though I still didn't want it to be a shared secret. There was someone I finally had to turn to and say "I need help". Guess who?
God wants to hear your secrets. I say "HEAR" because he already knows them. Psalm 139, one of my favorite chapters in the Bible, talks about how God
knows us. How He has examined every part of our being and knows our hearts. He knows your secrets. He has seen the deepest, darkest, scariest part of your soul and knows it completely. So He doesn't need you to tell Him the secret, He already knows it. But He wants you to share that secret with Him. Being with God daily means that we share the good and the bad stuff. He wants to hear it all. He already knows it, so what harm could coming right out and SAYING it really do?
The other part to these scary secrets is, maybe God put someone in your life to figure that secret out. Don't be afraid to have that confidant! I can honestly say I am amazing at keeping secrets, but when someone finds out those secrets, whether by me telling them, or the rare occasion that they figure it out, I feel better. And that friendship grows because of that secret. Secrets are powerful, and being willing to share them makes that friend know that you trust them, and it in turn makes you really trust them fully as well. Why let secrets keep you from having that deep connection with someone, or with God? Sharing them may be the best thing that ever happened! I can honestly say there are very few people in my life that get to hear my secrets. In fact I can think of only a few who probably know every single one...
The Love of my Life
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My "Big Sister"
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And my Best Friend
These three people know me inside-out. These three relationships have only grown stronger because of secrets that I have told them and they have told me, and I know that God put them in my life so that I would have people to share my secrets with and not carry around the weight of the world. They are beyond the most amazing people I know, and I couldn't survive without them. We all need people like that. So be willing to let them in!
